God's Discount

I'm thankful to have made the effort to get up early yesterday to attend morning Mass despite it being a public holiday. Fr Luke Fong's homily on the gospel reading certainly gave a new learning to Luke 16, the parable of the Dishonest Steward.

What if the 'dishonest' steward that gave discount to his master's debts is Jesus? In our imperfect and sinful ways, there's no way for us to enter the perfection of Heaven. We will always fall short. By our own right, we will never deserve the perfection of God's Love and Heaven. Jesus came and by dying on the cross made up the difference for us. He gave us a 'discount' by dying on the Cross. On further reflection.. In the secular world, especially in Singapore, we go into a frenzy when the Great Singapore Sale comes around. Some of us wait with much anticipation and excitement for the discount. How often do we remember the greatest 'discount' as already been given to us by Christ when the going gets tough? In our moment of trials and tribulations, I pray that we will remember the 'discount' that Christ paid for us by dying on the Cross. Then, maybe, we will be more excited with our journey to God.

Faith or Fate?

Faith: confidence or trust in a person or thing
Fate: something that unavoidably befalls a person; fortune; lot

Had this sense of peace and calm since Sat when I surrendered to His Will.. After Novena, I realise that it's okie for it (the r/s) to be not okie.. It will eventually work out according to His Plan.. I thanked my Guardian Angel for really working over time, guarding me when I was at my lowest point on Thursday.

Today's gospel on Faith was a profound reminder for me. After my experience on Sat, it was as if Christ talking directly to me. If I professed that God's Hands has always been a guiding hand in my life then who I am to question His Plan? How can I forgot the Faith I have in God? I felt His very peaceful presence on me during the whole Mass. I began to see things He put in my Life beyond to obvious.

Thank you Lord for my Guardian Angel, thank you for reminding me to trust in my Father's plan.

Hurt

My heart pines for you.. Is it suppose to hurt so much? Why am I so emotional about.. It's like a dam broke and the hurt keeps flowing in.. How much more can I take?

Staying Faithfully

This period of hurt and torment made me reflect on the deeper meaning of being faithfully to someone in the relationship. It's common thinking that being faithful means to be with one person. Maybe it's more than that.. Total faithfulness demands us to go beyond that.. It demands us be stay truth to our commitments no matter how weary the journey. If one substitute the relationship with another 'calling', is that staying true the relationship?

God, in Jesus, show us really what commitment is. I pray that I have the strength to continue to be totally faithfully to thought, word and deed in this time of doubt..

Questions And Answers

This has been the toughest period in my life.. So much uncertainty and doubts.. Deep down I know it's all part of God's plan.. And because He's perfect, His plan is perfect. Although I don't like this part of His plan, I know it will make me stronger. :)

Many nights were spent praying and listening.. Although I'm troubled, I felt such calmness coming upon me.. My guardian angel and my patron saint must be working over time!

Yes, Lord, your servant is listening..

I'm Back (Maybe)

It has been a long time since I blog.. Lots of things has happened but one thing that is still consistent is how much I love her.. I was in one of my foul moods when it suddenly hit me that it's in the most difficult moments that I love her most deeply. We have begun to talk about bring our relationship to the next level. What, at first, I thought seems to be the natural progression but it's not so. We have something that I have never experience before, can't exactly put in words what 'it' is.. It's just 'It'! I look around me and I see relationships and marriages stagnant or fail around me. I think it just comes down to the 'C' word. COMMITMENT! I learnt that big time in various stages of my AW journey. When the lovey dovey feelings go away, the roses wilt and the clouds are gone, it is commitment that drives a person. The ironic part of it: commitment is about focusing out to someone.

A Prayer

I have stopped blogging for a long time..
N I'm back!
Finally, we get to lead our own lives..
Just the two of us..
In the ride of Life..

What did I do to deserve you?
Your smile, your tickles, your grin..
Your understanding, your challenges..
Your coaching, your passion, your singing,
Your family..
I love you

Thank you, Lord, for binging us together..
I pray that You will continue to guide us through our moment of follies
And continue to bless our relationship with Your Graces..